The pads/bags beat me up

Back to kickboxing.

Elbows bruised already. Knees not much better. Probably worse but at least I can hide them.

I was thinking during class when I was trying to kick with my thousand pound legs that I should just kill myself because my cardio is obviously crap.

I never had the best cardio but I am certain that when I was training like 5 times a week it was much better than what it is now.

So basically I beat the shit out of myself.

Stupid girl.